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A False Sense of Love By Yolanda
Johnson
I Gotta Go, I Gotta Leave "so please don’t make it hard for
me. I’ve gave enough, I’m tired of love, I gotta let it go.”
Most of us know these lyrics from R&B singer Vivian Green
smash hit. She sings about giving all she has for the wrong
reasons and to the wrong person. I had to sit here for a
moment and listen to the song and go over the lyrics a few
times. When love is gone; its gone and there is nothing that
can be done. So then why, oh why, do we try to hang on to
something that wasn’t destined to be? Only to have what was
once love, or the deception of love turn into bitterness,
anger and if I may, derangement; if that is a word. LaQuisha
Hart put on my heart to write this particular piece. If you
live in the Dallas Fort Worth area, then you are well educated
on just who Ms. Hart is. On March 5th, LaQuisha’s ex-boyfriend
“allegedly” beat her beyond recognition. LaQuisha and Nathan
Green dated for six years and it is unclear if LaQuisha had
broken it off with Mr. Green or not, but the deal was sealed
when Nathan kicked in her door and beat her while she was on
the phone with 911. It was clear on the 911 tapes as LaQuisha
called in, at first calm, saying that Nathan was banging at
her front door and threatening to break it down. You could
also hear on the 911 tape when Nathan succeeded in breaking
down that very door and calmness turned to hysteria as
LaQuisha screamed for her life, while her boyfriend violated
her. In addition, the Dallas Police Department is
investigating and being investigated for their effortless
attempt at responding to LaQuisha’s cries, but that is another
story for another day. Nathan then forced LaQuisha in a car
and took her to another location where he “allegedly” beat her
for two hours straight according to his victim. She finally
escaped to a Williams Chicken restaurant where a worker there
called police. It appears that is not the first time Mr. Green
has laid hands on her. LaQuisha stated to news reporters that
she had broken up with him several times but was too “in love
with him and went back”. Umm no baby, that is not love. What
Nathan and LaQuisha have or had are the results of two worlds
colliding. The two worlds are called fear and control.
LaQuisha is not alone. Many women are currently in
relationships where they disguise, cover up, or excuse their
situations as love. Not too many things baffle me, well
several forms of ignorance does, but I do find it hard to
understand why when a person says “its over”, and the other
person involved turns into a raving lunatic. When the loving
is gone, both parties need to leave; move on. Personally, I
would never want anyone who didn’t want me. So when LaQuisha
told Nathan she wanted to leave, or however she put it to the
brother, he should have just left and moved on. You know the
old saying, “there are plenty of fish in the sea.” Or as
several brothers put it, “*bleep* comes a dime a dozen”. So,
besides the fact that a lot of men, OR women for that matter,
can’t take rejection well, why do they do something so stupid
that can negatively affect the rest of their lives? Women we
aren’t totally free of guilt. Well I am, because all you have
to do is tell me once and I wouldn’t even leave a Dear John
letter. Like Tamia says, “ So long, it means I’m gone”. You’ll
never have to worry about me slicing your tires or confronting
you. But hey that’s just me. When a break happens, both
parties need to step back, take some time to heal and work on
themselves and move on. The only thing sadder than the fact
that this man felt the need to beat this young lady, who is
also the mother of his child, is that he is now facing prison
time. Had he killed her, he’d be facing murder charges. Why
would one risk his, or her, own life to take another one? Why
not think about the consequences before instead of after? At
what point is enough, enough? I pray that LaQuisha finds the
strength to move on and heal, not only for the sake of her
young child, but also for her own safety. Surviving an abusive
relationship does not come without scars; physical or
emotional. In some cases, the woman, or the man will find it
hard to ever love again, OR even worse, they will find
themselves back in the same types of relationship because
abuse is the only thing they have to equate with love. I also
pray that LaQuisha takes time for her and finds her real self
worth and realizes that it is in her and not a man or anything
else for that matter but God. For if she comes to this
realization, she will be able to spot a knuckle head from far
away and prevent her past from becoming her future. Ladies and
Gentlemen, no one can define you, but YOU. And the abuser will
only do to you what you allow them to do to you. Take control
of your life, for you are fearfully and wonderfully made in
God’s image and if you don’t let them, no one can take that
from you. Lets star now with an uprising of self- loving and
life respecting sons and daughters. I say this because from
the looks of it now, from this window of the world that I’m
looking from, our future is on a straight path of destruction.
The time is now, if we are going to make a difference. Check Out Yolanda Johnson &
Literary Wonders
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The Central Brooklyn Jazz Consortium Festival 2006
Join Yendys on March 26th 2006 for The Yendys Experience
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Happy Women's History Month!
I’ll make this short and sweet. God Bless to all, I miss
you all and I can’t wait to get back to work full time. Give a
round of applause to James for holding it down while a sistah
is down and out! I guess this is not a good time to ask for a
raise huh? LOL (as if I’m getting paid at all). But on the
serious tip (shoot I am serious). Until next time, God bless
to one and all! And let’s work a little harder on that thing
we call “Love”. ~~Yolanda, Your Online Editor
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Sanya D.
Hudson Payne with James Lisbon |
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Ms. Hudson-Payne was born and raised in Brooklyn, New York.
At the tender age of seven she began using writing as a
therapeutic remedy whenever spoken words weren’t enough to
quell the “growing pains” many of us have experienced from
childhood to adulthood. As a way to share her whimsical gift
of writing with the rest of the world, she infuses humor,
imagery, compassion, creativity and emotional depth, so
readers can take their minds on a mystical journey that
provides mental stimulation and nourishment for the soul.
Please sit back and enjoy this interview. James Lisbon: Why
did you choose to write about love? Sanya D. Hudson Payne:
Many people, men and women, believe love is something they
will never experience. We as a society are becoming
comfortable with the notion that if we are single, then so be
it. I wrote the book, The Seasons of Love, as a testament to
love's tenacity and necessity in today's day and age. As the
story unfolds, readers will be yearning for a simple kiss,
touch, or smile from a person they love, dream of loving, or a
love that was lost. My book will serve as a reminder that even
though we are constantly getting images of love being taboo,
love in its different seasons can remind us of how it felt to
be loved when we were children, unconditional and transcending
time. Also, in my opinion, the majority of the books I have
read dealing with relationships either show two people falling
in love and then conflict comes and the relationship is over.
Or, it shows two people falling in love and staying in love
without encountering any problems. I wanted to show how love
fosters emotional growth and how a crisis can be used as a
stepping stone to move forward. That's deep. Why did you
make the transition from Brooklyn to Florida? I moved from
Brooklyn to Florida because I knew I wanted to see progression
in my life. I needed to be in a place that provided me with a
sense of serenity so I could gather my thoughts. After living
in NY, I felt like I couldn't hear my inner spirit talking to
me. All I kept hearing was the noise New Yorkers experience on
a daily basis. Noise we become immune to over time. Sometimes
a person has to take a step back and reflect in order to take
many steps forward. Peace and quiet is a rarity in NY, I
concur. Are you nervous about upcoming book signings and
tours? Yes, but that is a good thing. Whenever I am
nervous it drives me to do my best. I've come too far to be
defeated. And, I'm just getting started. There is still so
much more I would like to do in my lifetime. I hear you!
Definitely keep us abreast when you come back home to the Big
Apple. Are Taylor and Brandon fictional or do they resemble
people you know or have known in the past? The characters
are fictional, but there are a few personal experiences
sprinkled throughout the book. What community or
educational programs are you affiliated with? I am
presently the sponsor of an organization named A.C.E.S which
stands for Accepting Challenges Experiencing Success. This
organization is for high school students who have a commitment
to the betterment and upliftment of their communities. I am
also the founder of a women's group called Sistah Circle. The
purpose of this club is to empower, encourage, and educate
women on issues that affect us in today's day and age. I chose
to be affiliated with both organizations because it is
community service oriented. I believe I am blessed with the
tools to help those who can not do it by themselves. I have
had many positive role models in my life and I know it is my
duty to give back. I try to lead by example and positivity. I
live by the motto, "You may be the only bible someone else
gets a chance to read." That's great. It is so important
that we lend ourselves to our young people. Does your
education and career ooze into the characters of my book?
Not my career as a teacher doesn't, but definitely my
education in psychology. My degree in psychology has helped me
understand the complexities of people in a more profound way.
Since my book, The Seasons of Love contains explicit nature, I
cannot attribute any of that to my teaching career. Teachers
are often looked upon as stoic, rigid, and lacking humor. My
book shows another side of teachers. It shows we should not be
stereotyped and pigeon-holed into one category. We love,
laugh, and are entering the profession at much younger ages.
We are just as multi-faceted as the next person. Indeed.
How long did it take to complete the book? I began writing
in September 2004 and finished in May 2005. So, it took me 8
months to write it. Do you think erotic is a must for
todays new author? No. I think it is a reality. There are
many topics writers can choose from. I think a writer should
choose a topic that will send a message to society. Yes I do
have explicit love scenes in my book, but I think love is the
most beautiful thing in the world and it's also what is
missing and yet desperately needed. When I wrote The Seasons
of Love, mentally and physically, I was in a very low place. I
had just moved to Florida and one month later was devastated
by Hurricane Ivan. I lost almost everything and was basically
homeless. I was upset over losing some of my material
possessions as any person would be, but I mostly upset because
I lost a lot of of personal items like my daughter's baby
pictures and other mementos. Every person I loved was back
home in New York. I felt emotionless and void of love. I
blocked myself off from giving love and receiving it because I
couldn't believe I was dealing with such a tragedy. Although I
was in a chaotic state, I knew I had to rebuild mentally.
spiritually, and physically. So, I decided to create the world
I wanted to bring in existence for myself. I needed to believe
that I could feel again. While writing my book I was able to
forget about my present condition and get back to what I
always knew I could have. I was able to explore the various
temperaments of love and that strengthened my healing process.
Wow. I am very sorry to hear that but I am glad to see you
have persevered. Could parents use your book as a guiding tool
for their of-age children? Definitely! The Seasons of Love
is a blueprint for the way love should be. It shows men and
women how to be respectful, nurturing, honest, passionate,
compassionate, trustworthy, reliable, and emotionally
supportive to one another. Thanks for your time-it is
definitely appreciated! |
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Juneteenth
Literary Expo |
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Ralph Ellison Library and Families First Foundation will
host the first JUNETEENTH LITERARY EXPO during Oklahoma City’s
20th Juneteenth Celebration. We are looking for African
American Authors to sale and sign their books as well as share
their publishing experience. The event will be held at: Ralph
Ellison Library - Oklahoma City, OK Saturday, June 17th, 2006
10:00 a.m. – 2:00 p.m. The cost of involvement is $25 fee and
3 copies of your book. In order to ensure statewide
distribution with our library system your information must be
received before March 31, 2006. Those who send registration
after the March 31st deadline will have to pay a late fee of
$15 (total registration of $40) and we will make every effort
to include them in promotional materials. Please email Monique
Bruner directly at deltareviewer@yahoo.com before sending
payment and/or books. Payment can be made via Paypal (to
deltareviwer@yahoo.com) and books can be sent to the following
address: Families First Foundation JUNETEENTH LITERARY EXPO
6409 Braniff Dr. Oklahoma City, OK 73105 If you have any
questions or need additional information, please call Monique
Bruner at (405) 615- 6711 or email at deltareviewer@yahoo.com.
Thank you in advance for your support. There is power in the
word! |
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Are You
Free-By Monique Bruner |
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ARE YOU FREE? Do you know someone that has been sexually
abused? Do you know someone addicted to drugs? Do you know
children in a difficult living environment? Is your local
school district in turmoil? Do you have trouble maintaining
personal relationships? If you answered yes to one or more of
these questions then you may not be FOREVER FREE. You may not
be FREE of past hurts and generational bondage of sexual abuse
and drug addiction. Do You Want To Be FOREVER FREE? Dr. Gayle
Rogers spent the last four years researching the effects that
sexual abuse and drug addiction has on African American
females and the relationships that she forms. Once Dr. Rogers
received her doctorate degree she heard the call from God to
turn her dissertation into a readable non- fiction book to
assist men and women in being FREE. In addition to her book,
Healing the Traumatized Soul, Dr. Rogers is in the process of
developing a workbook to help people process the trauma,
release the pain, and regain the self-respect/self-esteem that
they deserve. But What Does Research Say about Sexual Abuse
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The Cleo
Robinson Dance Ensemble-By Monque Bruner |
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Recently the Cleo Parker Robinson Dance Ensemble performed
in my area and they were AMAZING! The choreography, music,
original costume design and talent were awe-inspiring. Cleo
Parker Robinson Dance (CPRD) began as a grass roots
organization in 1970. Today CPRD is a non-profit organization
serving the community with its year round dance school,
serving 350 students; Season of Schools program that works in
corporation with Denver Public School District; International
Summer Dance Institute which hosts master teachers from around
the world; Project Self Discovery which is a grant program
used as an alternative to substance abuse and gang violence;
The Cleo Parker Robinson Dance Theatre, a renovated 24,000
square foot theatre located in Downtown Denver. If you travel
to the Denver area check them out or if you are need of
entertainment for your next cultural event check to see if
they are available. |
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ASPICOMM
Self Publishing Symposium-By Heather
Covington/Disilgold |
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THE 1st ASPICOMM SELF PUBLISHING SYMPOSIUM & 1ST
S’INDIE AWARDS PRODUCED BY RENEE FLAGLER DURING WOMEN’S
HISTORY MONTH IS A LITERARY SUCCESS! Courtesy of www.
Disilgold.com Where were the next top self-published
authors from around the nation during Women’s History Month
like Marc Lacy; author of (The Looking Heart & Reflux CD),
Rodney E. Daniels (Only God Can Create a Woman), Sherry
Brantley (Best of Friends), Shirley Green (God Within a
Shadow), Vernelle Edwards (Missionary) James Nash (Truth
Told), Naomi Douglas Davis (Write 1.com), Mel Hopkins
(Sleeping With the D-Man), C. Renee West (Caught in the
Struggle), Joan Robertson (In the Winter of Her Season),
Sherry Brantley (Choices the Power Within You), Leon Dickerson
(Dr. Dickerson, His Dissertation, and God), Shirley Green (God
Within The Shadow), Vernelle Edwards (Missionary) and Lonetta
M. Taylor (Fia and the Buttefly) on March 12, 2006 from
8:00am- 5:00pm? These next happening authors fast on their way
to the top of the African- American literary scene as many
guests got to know about their lives and stories one- by- one
were at The 1st Aspicomm Self- Publishing Symposium and
S’Indie Awards, held at the monumental and historical
Schomberg Center of Research in Black Culture and founded and
produced by Ms. Renee Flagler (Aspicomm.com); Best Selling
Essence Author of Mountain High, Valley Low and founder of
Futures by Design; a non profit organization with “a mission
to mentor and coach at risk teens for brighter futures.”
Monumental history was made on this day! The Aspicomm S’Indie
Award winners were selected with much anticipation,
nervousness and excitement in the air. Sherry Brantley; author
of Best of Friends won for Best Fiction Novelist, Kevin Wayne
Johnson; author of Give God the Glory (not present) won for
Best Non-Fiction, Marc Lacy; author of The Looking Heart won
for Best Poet of the Year, Joan Robertson won for Best
Spiritual/ Inspirational Novel, Lonnetta M. Taylor; author of
Fia and the Butterfly won for Best Children’s Book and Shirley
Green; author of God Within the Shadow won for Best Cover.
Heather Covington (President of the YOUnity Guild of America;
editor-in-chief of Disilgold Soul Literary Review
(Disilgold.com), EMCEE and judge of self- publishing contest,
was awarded with the Aspicomm Trailblazer Award of Excellence
for outstanding achievement in publishing, media, marketing
and support of the literary community. The self-published
authors were asked to introduce themselves and share insight
about their books. |
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The Oscars. Terrence D. Howard. It's Hard Out Here
For Pimp. Hustle & Flow. Your Thoughts. Need I Say
More? Peace. Please sent to woym@awarenessmagazine.net
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